i just don't know...

phuket
Originally uploaded by melmok.

I’ve been feeling shity for the past few days. Probably it’s after the holiday syndrome, but it’s been a week now since I came back.

After all the loud music blasting thru my earphones… and the inhaling of ‘fresh air’, I realize that what Jelly said really HIT me. Yeahh yeah… a lot of them have asked me again and again.... “What the hell am I doing here?”

“Go back to Ad line!”
“You’re wasting your time here in that company!”
“You’re gonna loose out more if you keep on staying in that company”

I’m starting to lose my patience here. Day by day I’m beginning to hate this place.
I’m beginning to hate this uniform that I’m wearing!.
Yes!! I’m a designer and I need to wear uniform!
F***ing UNIFORM!!

What kind of designer wears uniform!!??? Uniform does not exist in our dictionary!
Yes, we do save on clothing expenses. But…c’mon…!!! UNIFORM!!!

I’ve been practically doing the same thing again and again for the past 1 1/2 years here…
And did I mention that my patience is running out day by day?

This is the point in my life that I have no freaking idea what to do for the next 30 more years to come(actually.. all i want to do is to bum at the beach..and do nothing.....), that’s if I do manage to live by that age.

Jack of all traders, Master of None.

coolwater

phuket
Originally uploaded by melmok.

I miss the villa that we stayed at in Phuket. It turns out that the villa that we’re paid for had some problems with the swimming pool. So the owner( i think) placed us at a nicer villa, which we wanted in the first place! The reason that we didn’t take the nicer villa was because of the $$$. It cost double of the place that we’ve paid for.

Mostly of us was looking forward to come back with perfect suntan but unfortunately we only manage ‘suntan’ on the first day that we arrived. Boo hooo…
Not a right time to go to an island during raining season…
blame it on IanLCC and Elayne. Why do their birthdays have to fall on the raining season? Sob sob sob…. Or probably why Phuket at this time!!??

But the villa made it all enjoyable..... (sigh.. i miss the place...)
www.coolwater.com

Anyways, had a balance of fun from both groups…
Got pissed ‘high’ from alcohol. (from the drinking group)
Had my first Thai massage. (from the spa/massage group)

Yup… 2 groups…. 1 group who likes massages and the other who hates it. And I’m in between. I only like massages when I really need it.

why...

checking
Originally uploaded by melmok.

Found out that I could have gotten a better deal for the package of 350D yesterday.
I could have save RM350++ and could have gotten a nice lowpro sling bag. Damn!!...
#!$@%^*@#

Have only managed to try out the camera last weekend. And I sucked at it with that camera. Well, I guess its practice, practice, and practice….

I wish I could say that “I can’t wait to go Phuket!!’ all excited and stuffs.
But I can’t. I wonder why. Everyone is all hype up with the trip and I’m the only that don’t feel a thing. It’s not like I’m not looking forward to Phuket, it’s just that I don’t feel excited about it at all. More into worrying about taking care of the brand new camera that I’m going to bring along to the trip. I WANNA take nice pictures!...

And on top of that, I’m starting to feel that I’m wasting my time here in this company. I’m testing my patience’s and it’s running out week by week.
Where can I find a job that pays me what I’m getting now and get to do what I wanna do that is designing what I wanna design, take pictures and travel. LOL…

Tonight I shall go back and have a early night and dream about it!.
And that’s if I can sleep early tonight!