things that i did know

It’s been crazy ever since I came back from the Vietnam business trip.
Yay….. free trip again. But then still have to work…

Spent 1 ½ day in Ho Chi Minh and another 2 days in Hanoi.
The weather in Hanoi was cold.. and I freaked out the minute when I landed there. I tried to trace back if I had brought any cloths that can keep me warm for the few days there.
Thank god as the time goes by, the weather was not as cold when I arrived.

Work is pilling up… I thought I can get it done and over with before the Chinese New year… but due to problems from the other ‘side’ .. I would have to prepare my self to slave throu the week after the CNY.

After all the research, I realize that people have this mind set that certain things have to be in a certain way.

For instance,
A: what kinda car is going to be your wedding car? Mercedez ? a BMW?
B: Does it matter what kinda car?
A: Of course…

What’s the point of converting a ‘luxury’ car to a wedding car when ‘the car’ is not even own by you.
Why even bother to renting it!!.. my gosh… the things that I’ve found out theses couple of weeks….

A: why you don’t want wedding band? Must have a ring…
B: Don’t want mah don want lor.. I want a tattoo instead…

Then they would give the ‘look’

A: You’re not taking your wedding pictures?? Why..? Must take…
B: Cos I don’t want to make a fool out of my self …
A: Hai yar… once in a life time mar… for memories…
B: It’s just not me lar… to pose and pose…

Then they would give the ‘look’ again…

Yes… yes… different ppl has their own different ideas and likings..
I do respect that… but these things are not my cup of tea…

I make a fool of my self everyday and I don’t wish to immortalize it for the rest of my life..
Change here… change there… pose here … pose there…

A: how many dresses are you going to change during dinner?
B : 1 only…
A: (giving the ‘look’ again)Why… ?

My gosh.. Change so many times for what….
Probably it’s a girl thing… or maybe I’m not that girly enough …

I do question my self sometimes…

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all smile

all smile
Originally uploaded by melmok

I realized that I haven’t been blogging lately.
Probably, I’m still recovering from my lost of my dear iBook… my ‘mac mac’

It’s been almost 2 months since I came back from Nihon.
A week after Nihon, before I could recover from one of the most advanced country in Asia, I hopped to another plane.
To Seam Reap….
This trip was planned since January.
Which was my yearly holiday.
Everything there….was not as cheap as I thought.
“1 dollar…… 1 dollar……..”
Is what I’ve been hearing from the little kids from the whole entire trip.

A very huge difference experience from Japan and Seam Reap.

A bunch of children would surround you with shawls, souvenirs and cold drinks after every visit from the temples.
Saying “no thank you’ was our standard answer.
But I gave in a few times at the end cos some of the kids was very persistent…
Following us to our tuk tuk until we were about to ride off.

We were told by our tuk tuk driver not to buy things from the kids.
This would encourage the kids to stop schooling if they think that they can survive by selling or begging from tourists.
It’s sad to see that Khmers lives in such a poor condition. Everyone is doing the same thing to survive. Selling the same stuffs.. talk about competition!

The day before we left, we went to Banteay Srei, which was about 35-45 km away from Angkor Wat. It took us 45 mins to reach Banteay Srei. Along the way, we could see how the Khmers lives. It’s very similar with our kampung style. But the condition was worst.

Being in two difference country, back to back….. made me think that we are blessed.
As an Asian country, we are not the worst in living condition and could be the best in future. :D


Next stop, DUBAI….

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Nihon

After talking about it for a year.
The day has arrived.
Am going to Japan soon.
Woo hoo!!…
Under business trip and market research expenses…

Am going to 3 places in a week and it’s all about presenting to the people there about what we do here.

I am expecting myself to drop dead when I check into the hotel at night from all the traveling around…. Jumping from 1 place to another in less then 48 hours. I can’t wait for the last 2 days when I’ll be free from all the smiling and presentation…
My last stop would be at TOKYO… so little time and so many places to explore!!!
Hmm… I haven’t even do a proper research on the traveling around the city yet.. arrgghh…

Time is ticking and yet I still have time to blog.. muhahahah…
Okay.. back to work… have to finish it up before Monday.

3hree

I got a call from my dad.
He calmly asked if I had place my ibook at the same old place that I’ve always put it.

I said yes and asked why?

He confirm with me again to find out whether I’ve taken it to work.
And from there I knew something must have happed.

He then calmly said that our house has been broke in.
The first thing that popped in my mind was my camera that was still under the installment plan payment.
“Is both my cameras still there?”

He couldn’t tell as the place was in a mess and the moment that I hung up. I couldn’t stop swearing.
Surely they/he must have taken the 2 cameras with all the cash and jewelries.

My brand new bag pack that was placed nicely on top of the closet!
My laptop and camera bag which cost me some $$$ would be gone.
My mom’s jewelries.. my jewelries…. Currency notes… cash… credit cards…

I had prepared the worst scenario.

I went back straight in spite of the rain that was pouring down. As I was waiting for the rain to subside..
My imagination went wild on me. The tv, hi-fi, compute…. Everything must have surely been gone. The house would be in a totally mess!!

When I went back home.
Everything in the living room was in place. Went to my parents room, the cloths was all on the floor and bed.
Went to my room, the same thing… Confirm that my iBook was gone.
Surprisingly, both my cameras were still there.
My GOSH! They/he did not take the cameras…

My iBook, my mom’s jewelries, currency notes and cash all gone with the wind.

Apparently my dad left the house at 12.15pm for lunch and came back at 1.00pm
Within 45 mins, the house was broken in.

It’s been 3 days since…
I miss my iBook that has served me well and good for the past 3 years.
The jewelries, that was with the family for 30 over years….
The currency notes, that was suppose to be utilize next year and
the cash, for the household utilities…

May it ‘all’ rest in peace and may the Bl**DY B*S*ARD burn in H*LL!!!

interview

interview
Originally uploaded by melmok

It is confirm that I can’t be in reality show!

I can’t be that backstabbing ‘B**CH” nor the nice girl who could be stabbed behind.
I would rather keep any comments to my self and not blunt it out to the nation wide .
Am regretting for what I’ve said.. and I hope that you guys won’t hunt me down when you see it on TV…

Okay.. my 5 minutes of fame.

F1-Sepang-K2

F1-Sepang-K2
Originally uploaded by melmok.

Ian got some free tics to the F1 and I took the opportunity to practice my photo snapping.
All hype up to snap people pics but ended up taking more car pics, even thou I know that my lens is not up to that standard. By the time I gave up on the car pics… I realize that my back was heating up and started to soar. Then I realize that I’ve forgotten to put on sun screen lotion on my back! After 2 hours under the direct sun…!!!

Came back with really red back… and it’s freaking hurting rite now….


I realize that people are afraid of change.
More so after having a chat with a coll today.
People tend to want more in life and not do anything about it.
They/Humans/Us/People ‘…loves…' to complain about their life’s…. not earning enough…. not happy with this and that....and yet they do nothing to improve it.

If you don’t like it, then do something about it!!

I guess we are all so comfortable with our daily ‘schedules’ and life’s that makes us afraid to take ‘THAT’ step to change.

Taking a chance, making the first step and going out of the box is always daunting.
This is what you have to do if you want to change.
Change you life.
Change your career.
Change everything.

Sometimes we just have to do what NIKE says..
“Just Do It’

family of 2 and family of 4

Can someone out there tell me how does marriage works?

Man marries women. They stay together alone, build a family.
Man use to pay everything back in the days during our parent’s time.
But these days, everything is equal… rite.
Fine. Split the bills….


Now…
Man marries women, they don’t live together.. they live with man’s family.
Does that means that the women have to bare a bit of the cost of living of 'the family'?

Or does she have to contribute the expenses of the family in terms of bills or food or the maid?

Or she does not have to cos, he has made a vow, when he made her his wife…. to take care of the women. And love the women, and blah blah blah….

Does the man have to pay the women monthly allowance when he marries the women or he does not have to since she’s working as well?
And on top of that they are staying with his family.

I wish thare’s a dummies for these things..

sayonara

I knew this day would happen.( I was hoping that it will not….but…)
The day when I find out that I would not be able to go the japan and I had to figure out should I stay or should go. I thought that I could think about it ‘when’ I get back from Japan. But I guess, that day would not happen.

Dang!.. now I can hear my ex coll/ex schoolmate telling me to stop being in denial.
Occasionally, he would ask me when am I going to leave and I would tell him that I’m hoping and wishing that my japan trip would happen and I would think about it when I get back….

The boss has been telling me not to worry and he would be sending me there since last year… but just a few hours ago, the story changed.
I guess things don’t always go as you’ve planned. What a BUMMER!

It’s killing me just trying to figure out should I stay or should I go.
And which line should I be heading to…


Bl**dy h*ll…!…
While writing this…I realize that there’s a lot of these little red ants IN my ibook.
They were ‘attacking’ my bed few months back and now it’s the iBook!
Arrgghhh….
Why ar??

2007

Yet again, it’s been a while.. …

Been freaking busy since before the new years till now. And finally I had time to breath and think. New year came by like a flash of lighting … While everyone was busy enjoying them self with the new years and holidays… I on the other hand had to work!!
Blame it on the desperations of the extra money.
Now that the project is over and out of my hands… I can relax and continue with practicing my photography.
On top of that…. I can’t stop thinking 2006 is over and gone.,,,
WHAT HAPPEN TO 2006!!?? Bugger!!

Well, I did manage to do some practicing on new years eve at the track of Sepang. But it did not turn out well at all.
Being on the track, watching people drift was an experience!

What’ve learn :

1. You need the extra cash to fix up your car after all the stunts that you would/could pull.
2. You really need a lot of extra cash for this ‘hobby’

Saw rims dangling out from the tires, bumps all over the bumpers, tires all torn out…..
smoke bursting out from the hood … (okay I might be blowing it out of proportion…kekeke) but you get my drift ..rite?

That would be the first and the last unless that Japanese dude (Which I can’t recall his name….) decides to come again to perform some stunts. … Apparently he’s a pro and famous for drifting. It would be more interesting to see him do those stunts…..

I do not have any personal resolutions this year… but I do hope that my friends and a certain friend would find himself and do what he wants to do and not regret his actions when the time comes in future…


Dang… another call… do I need to more extra extra cash…. ?????

mid life crisis?

I hope that when ‘mid life crisis’ occurs to any of my close friends from now onwards…. They would not change or gives us a cold shoulder.

If they would like to take time off from hanging with us.. that’s fine.
But don’t cut us off directly (it’s debatable). Depending on how you look at it.
I suppose that the idea of this situation did not come across my mind at all.
Never in a million years….
I never thought that it would turn out like this. Probably we’ve know each other for so long and when we talk, we talk crap.
And after one and half months of not meeting up, being presented with an iPod Nano and talking cautiously and politely from a dear old friend is really weird. Really …. really weird.

It’s sad that this is happening. Who would have thought that being friends for 14 years… our friendship is over… ended with an iPod Nano.
I really do hope that this is not the end of our friendship.

And I do hope that this just a temporary thingy and when the ‘mid life crisis’ has ends, the whole situation would be back to the good old days.

I think I would be able to get back to the good old days… but it would be a whole different story for JT.

a blog reader

Every time when something happens… the first thing that I think of is blogging about it.
But when the time comes… sitting in front of the monitor… I tend to surf and read people’s blog. Then my mood to blog about what had happen, vanished in to thin air.

humans are human

It amazes me that some people can get so sensitive.
What comes around and goes around.
Haven’t you heard of it?

If one can criticize another person without thinking about the other persons feeling,
Then you should accept other people’s criticism. Rite?

I just don’t get it…

i need a cure

Sometimes I wonder what’s wrong with me… in Health wise that is!

Even thou I love extreme sports … I can’t do it, or as much or as religiously as I want to.
Why?

Because I’ve manage to injure myself once in a while without knowing what’s the cause of it. And that stops me from doing all the things that I wanna do… and getting sick at least once a month is not fun. Even thou it’s just the flu or cold or fever.

It all happened when I was 14.
I injured my spine and got my self a slight slipped disc on my lower back.
The pain was unbearable. Till now I still do get a slight pain on and off when I do not sit or stand properly.

There goes no diving, no surfing, bungie jumping, no backpacking….

Then another ‘somehow’ I manage to injure (twisted) my wrist.

As years pass by, one day while walking on the streets…
I MANAGE to fracture my toe bone!!
Don’t ask me how I did I. But I did it.
I fractured my right Big Toe Bone! I had to use the crutches for a month and i had to stay home practically every day. I had to make sure that the places that I go to don’t have much stairs. Imagine walking down the stairs and the only thing that you can depend on is the crutches that you’re using and the person next to you.
I remembered my lesson.
Went to watch a movie Summit. Why Summit? Cos it was near my place… so instead of all the hassle of walking around in a pack shopping mall. We decided to go where there weren’t much people. The moment we bought the tickets and took a glimpse of the entrance…. I realize that I was going to be in big trouble. The cinema was at the 3rd floor and the only way to get up is throu 3 escalators. And on top of that… our seats was on the top!! * SLAP my self *
If you’ve been to the Summit GSC then you would know how many steps there is in that THX cinema. Climbing that stairs up to our seat took me ages. I felt like a 80 year old grandma!

Then I realize that there isn’t much facilities provided for handicap people. Why huh?
These people deserve to enjoy and experience a good movie at the cinema!!

And now…. My right wrist.
There’s a lump that looks like a bone which is jutting out.
Yes! It hurts… if you wanna know.
Went to the doc the other day cos of my bad flu. I asked him if it was normal to have this lumpy thingy on my wrist.

“ You have to go to an Xray and then we would know what is wrong? It might be a cyst.”

A CYCST !!!!
You gotta be kidding me!!

“Come back next week and I’ll write you letter for an XRay”
The thing is that, when he said it. He sounded so calm! Which is good. Cos it might not be a cyst. He might just want to inform me that IT MIGHT be….
But then again, if you’re not even sure…don’t say it’s a cyst! You are bloody freaking out your patients for no reason.

I’m freaking as day goes by with the slight pain on the wrist increases in and out… I guess I just have to no worry so much about it until i go get an Xray next.

home safe again?

Finally after a week of living in fear, the contractor has fixed the gate. After 10 days, after all the visits from the drug addict. He came the second time, this time he was sober, and he asked for money and stole my mother’s sport shoe.

I never thought that these things would happen at my neighbor hood.

House got hit by a car. Our house is not even located at the T-Juction.
Driver and passenger were stoned high!.
Passenger of the car has the guts to come back to the crime scene to ask for money.

Now home is safe again. Well, at least every one feels secure now.
A brand new gate.
A brand new grill.
A brand new sliding door.

weird but true

Home used to be the safest place for me until now.
On Monday, my house kena bang.

YES! Until yesterday, i found it funny to tell friends that my house kena bang.

Most of them would ask the same thing.
Huh!? What you mean kena bang?

YES! Thru the gate, to the grills on the sliding door panel.
The glasses on the door panel were all shatter on the floor.

While waiting for my dad to come back from the police station, my mom couldn’t take it anymore. She went to my neighbor’s place to find out what had happed to our house.

The driver and the passenger were high on drugs and some how or rather they managed to slam their car into my house.
No one was at home at that time. Thank God!

They panicked and drove off.
The funny thing is that they came back with some stitches on the passenger’s head.
(They must have gone to the clinic near by)
They came back because the driver dropped his handphone.
Haii yorr….

This time the car died on the spot. Panicked again.
They ran on foot.

A Singh couple and an Indian guy came by at 7 plus. Brother and sister with their car repair man.

They came back hoping to get the car started. On top of that, he was hoping to recover back his door panel that somehow or rather came off when the incidents happen.

Trying to figure out who and what the hell actually happened. He claimed that his two friends drove the car. And the car belongs to his girlfriend. He couldn't give his handphone number because he claim that his handphone and wallet is missing as well.
He then claimed that he has made a police report. But when my dad came back from the police station, he said that he would go make a police report.
What the!!??? Something doesn’t seem right.

They went off after finding out that they couldn’t get the car started at all.

The car was toll in the middle of the night and my dad managed to get the address of the workshop of the toll truck service. The next day, the adjuster came by to the house to take pictures. They went to the workshop and took some pictures of the car as well.
The Singh and the car owner, which was his girlfriend was there as well.
In the end, he confessed that he was the driver. And on top of that, he was driving without license.
Guess whom he confessed to? He confessed to the adjuster!!


Thank god that my dad bought an insurance for the house. If not then…
keching…Keching…
And Thank God that no one was injured!
The only problem that I’m worried about is our safety.

The passenger from the car incident came by to our house yesterday night. Stoned high!
Sat down in front of our door, asking for his friend. (the driver) Sat down for a whole 40 minutes. Didn’t want to leave, keep asking for his friend. He then gave up asking for his friend, and then asked for money to go back home!
2 minutes before the drug police came…he left the scene.

From all the incident, I found out something new.

When you have a drug addict hanging around your house, don’t call the Police.
Cos they wouldn’t be able to help you. * shock *
It’s not under their control. It’s under the drug center’s department.


The last time I remember when I was about 7-9 years old, still staying at my old house in PJ. A drug addict came to our house and started hanging out in front of the door. He kept asking for money, when my mom ignored him, he started banging the grill door. It really freaked my mother out. Being a kid at that age, I didn’t really know what was going on. All I could remember was, he wore a torn shirt and pants. Looking all dirty.

I really wish the world we would be a safer place for our children.

free things don't last

It’s sad that free things don’t last. I’ve just received a message from Flickr that my free account will only show my latest 200 pictures. (Only 200!! hhmm.... )

The rest of the pictures would be behind some dark and spooky, isolated place where no one would be able to visit… * sob Sob sob * damn!...

Hhmmm.. any one out there in the cyber world would be generous enough to sponsor me a Flickr

i just don't know...

phuket
Originally uploaded by melmok.

I’ve been feeling shity for the past few days. Probably it’s after the holiday syndrome, but it’s been a week now since I came back.

After all the loud music blasting thru my earphones… and the inhaling of ‘fresh air’, I realize that what Jelly said really HIT me. Yeahh yeah… a lot of them have asked me again and again.... “What the hell am I doing here?”

“Go back to Ad line!”
“You’re wasting your time here in that company!”
“You’re gonna loose out more if you keep on staying in that company”

I’m starting to lose my patience here. Day by day I’m beginning to hate this place.
I’m beginning to hate this uniform that I’m wearing!.
Yes!! I’m a designer and I need to wear uniform!
F***ing UNIFORM!!

What kind of designer wears uniform!!??? Uniform does not exist in our dictionary!
Yes, we do save on clothing expenses. But…c’mon…!!! UNIFORM!!!

I’ve been practically doing the same thing again and again for the past 1 1/2 years here…
And did I mention that my patience is running out day by day?

This is the point in my life that I have no freaking idea what to do for the next 30 more years to come(actually.. all i want to do is to bum at the beach..and do nothing.....), that’s if I do manage to live by that age.

Jack of all traders, Master of None.

coolwater

phuket
Originally uploaded by melmok.

I miss the villa that we stayed at in Phuket. It turns out that the villa that we’re paid for had some problems with the swimming pool. So the owner( i think) placed us at a nicer villa, which we wanted in the first place! The reason that we didn’t take the nicer villa was because of the $$$. It cost double of the place that we’ve paid for.

Mostly of us was looking forward to come back with perfect suntan but unfortunately we only manage ‘suntan’ on the first day that we arrived. Boo hooo…
Not a right time to go to an island during raining season…
blame it on IanLCC and Elayne. Why do their birthdays have to fall on the raining season? Sob sob sob…. Or probably why Phuket at this time!!??

But the villa made it all enjoyable..... (sigh.. i miss the place...)
www.coolwater.com

Anyways, had a balance of fun from both groups…
Got pissed ‘high’ from alcohol. (from the drinking group)
Had my first Thai massage. (from the spa/massage group)

Yup… 2 groups…. 1 group who likes massages and the other who hates it. And I’m in between. I only like massages when I really need it.

why...

checking
Originally uploaded by melmok.

Found out that I could have gotten a better deal for the package of 350D yesterday.
I could have save RM350++ and could have gotten a nice lowpro sling bag. Damn!!...
#!$@%^*@#

Have only managed to try out the camera last weekend. And I sucked at it with that camera. Well, I guess its practice, practice, and practice….

I wish I could say that “I can’t wait to go Phuket!!’ all excited and stuffs.
But I can’t. I wonder why. Everyone is all hype up with the trip and I’m the only that don’t feel a thing. It’s not like I’m not looking forward to Phuket, it’s just that I don’t feel excited about it at all. More into worrying about taking care of the brand new camera that I’m going to bring along to the trip. I WANNA take nice pictures!...

And on top of that, I’m starting to feel that I’m wasting my time here in this company. I’m testing my patience’s and it’s running out week by week.
Where can I find a job that pays me what I’m getting now and get to do what I wanna do that is designing what I wanna design, take pictures and travel. LOL…

Tonight I shall go back and have a early night and dream about it!.
And that’s if I can sleep early tonight!

350D

I finally got myself a 350D!! Woo Hoo… now I’m just waiting for the free lens from Canon.